she was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her thumb in the shape of an L on her forehead

uh so, to put it lightly....interviewfail.

Well, it wasn't a complete train wreck, but it wasn't amazing either. I was just a little too shy but that's just the norm with me lately. I need to figure out what I can do that makes myself more outspoken to strangers. I guess I have to gain self confidence... but how? I just find it funny how I realize that Im shy but I still dont do anything about it. i'm pretty amazing.

I really wish that they had a camera in the lobby while I was waiting for them to call me in for my interview. I think if they saw the way that I interacted with the people that receive support there, I would be a shoe in. (does anyone actually use that phrase anymore?) The one time in my life that I actually want to be creeped, and no one creeps me. Go figure.  The thing that is holding me back is that I can drive. There were 6 other girls that applied too, so if they can drive, I'm sure they will be chosen before me. Even though I'm in the DSW program and none of them are, it doesnt really matter... Not for part time, I dont think.I think if I could drive, I would be hired for sure, but since I cant.... blah. And that whole part was filled of complete confusion, yay.

I also hate how I have so much debt that when I get money, it doesnt actually do anything to help me catch up on rent and stuff, i just have to put it right towards my visa and phone bill. 

I'm having major problems again with feeling used, but that has nothing to do with this blog topic, so maybe we'll wait for tomorrow. Aww, see, i'm trying to stay on topic now!