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sooo I didnt get the job at my moms work, obviously. It kind of sucks. And the reasoning why I didnt get it sucks too. It wasnt even because I cant drive apparently. She said it was because I was shy and the people I support would eat me alive. YEAH, RIGHT. I KNEW I came off that way though. I was just sooo shy in my interview. And even though the lady said that I was the kindest girl she has ever met and she could tell I had a kind heart, she still didnt hire me. She said that my shyness comes from lack of experience. Seriously? So I guess I havent experience life for the last 19 years. She did say that I was met to work in this field, and that I'm probably better suited off for a group home to start off with. It just kind of sucks because everyone says you need experience but wont even give it to you. Well, she wants me to come and volunteer once a week, where ever I want. My mom said I should do it anyway. So I guess I will. Maybe.

This whole experience wasnt even that good because my mom was far too involved. She was worrying about everything more than I am. I know she means well, but I would rather her not. It isnt really good on my self confidence if I need to have my mother do everything for me in life. Even though, I do.