I'm known for kind of being a drama queen sometimes.. I guess I got that gene from my mom.. yay. The doctor basically told her to suck it up and that it wasn't getting any worst right now. But then again, this illness wont ever go away. It can get better, but it can become deadly at anytime as well. It's really hard having someone saying stuff like "you take care of Tyler if I die and you finish school." Because death is...well, death. It doesn't scare me as much as it scares other people. If I die, I'm more worried about my parents and brother being depressed about me being gone. I'm not scared about not being able to live life, because my life isn't that special. When I think about my mom dying, I know I would be a wreck but it still doesn't scare me. Is that weird?

I don't know but I'm kind of getting tears as I write this, so maybe death scares me more than I think.