I don't think people realize how much impact they can have on you. I guess I don't realize the impact I have on others either. But like now that i actually have people I talk to in class, or people that sit near me, it means so much. I know I seem like a total loser by saying this, but it's how I am. I am a terribly shy person but it's frustrating how people either refuse to believe it or won't see past it. my shyness does have a lot to do with self confidence. my lack of self confidence has a lot to do with the fact that i have nothing to be confident about. and i guess the fact that I even think that about my self proves something, no?

it's all a funny cycle. because like i think apart of the reason why i dont have self confidence is because the whole lack of boyfriend thing. but then again, that wont ever happen if i dont have self confidence no? so the only thing that i think MAY cure my self confidence probably wont ever happen because of the barrier that my lack of self worth makes. i just wish i was pretty because i know i have a kick ass personality, so suck ittttttt.